Months and days fly by.... it goes by slower when your sad and depressed and faster when you are happy! Or rather it time flies when you want it to freeze and it seems like its frozen when you want it to fly or want a particular phase to get over.
Asking myself if I wanted the time to fly or freeze in the past few months... I just don't know the answer yet.... I was[and am] happy with my new life... but a part of me is still missing the old days..[I know I sound like a 80 year old here ;)] I miss college, I miss my friends, I miss my family... I miss the small pleasures of life I used to enjoy with my friends.... I miss Sanju.. I miss Renu... I miss everyone whom I have left behind... I wish to go back to college.. I crave to make full use of my time.. I wish to be independent...
Most importantly.. I wish for pure productive competitive spirit, i crave for deadlines... sleepless nights...the feel of adrenaline rush before the day of a big submission... before exams..!
But what keeps me positive is that.. within exactly 3 months time[92 days to be precise], I will be doing something constructive,, something that I always wanted to do...its like a stepping stone for me to achieve all that i ever wanted to...[even though I have no big dreams and desires :)] I wish to show people that I am not as useless or as jobless as they think I am. I wish to prove people wrong for every word tehy have uttered that has hurt me... I wish to take revenge...Sweet Revenge...by proving them worng!
So now time is neither still or moving from my perspective... it just taking its own pace... I have moved from one place to another all throughout my life...staring from Bombay to cochin to Chennai to Malaysia and now to the UK... everytime with a new hope in my heart to do well and achieve all that I wish for during that phase [even though I have been disappointed in myself a couple of times] With all the optimism in me... I look forward to a new beginning! Hope all goes well!
